A Million Leaves

This spring I prioritised 3 things, then only got 1 done

I went away on holiday in July, and since my return have slid, fallen, been driven from issue to issue in home, family and business. After the holiday I wanted to write to you about how much wellness came from a simple act of unplugging from the digital world while we did a river trip on the Salmon River- it was incredible!

In the interim I'd been down to Auckland 3 times, Whangarei at least 6 and as far as Nelson once for a funeral. I got to sit in the student seat again and finished a Boatmaster's Course. Our daughter had been sailing 6 of the 7 weekends in Auckland. The odd one out she went to a sailing camp at Urupukapuka in the Bay of Islands. See a theme?

Sensing I wasn't quite busy enough I did a stretch of ""manic gardening"" so that I could get my seedlings in the ground before the got pinched feet in their porch punnets. For all my effort I pinched a nerve leading to my shoulder. I would have to continue on my trips and work down a chicken wing. I managed to get back to a chiropractor I trusted, had treatment and pushed onwards.

I'm telling you this because I made a promise to be myself when I write

It's all good to write treatises on managing the flow and breathing and loving self-care. Those really, really are the things I believe in and practice daily (throughout those hectic weeks, I still did my morning practices at times modified for one arm). But if I always just write when I'm all yoga mystical, then you get an impression that I'm always yoga mama, which isn't far. It's a social media lie.

I'm making peace with being fabulously, nearly manically out of hand creating and responding. Because I know I am massively supported in a thousand ways to be ok. And I know that's just this phase.

Spring Time can be like this. A Million Leaves - All at Once

Have you watched an oak tree re-leaf in the springtime? It is the most spectacular event. In the space of just a few days, the entire tree buds and opens-expansion on all fronts, improbable, yet clearly capable.

So if you are feeling a bit like that right now, kind of million leaves all at once, lean into it, keep expanding, keep showing up, keep breathing, keep laughing. You are glorious.

Have a great spring, Oak Tree, Bex

Tahitian Squash Seeds to Good Homes

I have these seeds on offer, that I've been saving all winter long, from seeds that I saved the year before and they are special. When I was first gifted a wonderful, giant version of a butternut squash, we called it Luc's Pumpkin. The kids loved it, and thankfully, the seed had pollinated true to type and last summer we got a magic, 40 pumpkin crop from that one pumpkin. As near as I can tell it's a Tahitian Squash but could be a Canada Crookneck Squash or a Pennsylvania Dutch Crookneck-this is from scratching through images online. What I do know is that it is dense, beautiful, sweet and keeps very well. And there's nothing like it that I can find in the NZ Seed catalogues.

I love saving and sharing seeds. And since seed saving and heritage seeds are by nature old-fashioned, I think an old-fashioned distribution is what we need.

I have about 40 packets of Tahitian Squash, those self-addressed stamped envelopes received by November 15th will get one. Let's get them in the ground this season!

About the author

Becky Cashman

Founder and Product Maker ~ Goodbye NZ

I could be accused of being fringe. Sun, water, and air call to me to care, and I reflect my love as clearly as I can. Since that's what you do too, then we can be fringe together.

My children teach me to expand regardless of whether it's comfortable. My husband and business partner John is my blessing, for everything that means. Goodbye is a pathway for reflecting what I care about, our vital need to know and celebrate our connection to nature and to each other. Join me in the adventure.